Behind the title

I've found people explaining why they named their blogs this and that. That is exactly what I will do now though I'd felt poyo doing so. Sweetly, Frankly, Relentlessly. I could not even pronounce it with ease. I speak better English in my head than in reality. The pursue of becoming a sweet girl, the pursue that I've been trying to accomplish since few years ago, and I told my friends that I wanted to "watch more korean dramas in order to extract the sweetness of the characters." To say the least, never have I flunked so bad in a quest. I will never be sweet, because frankly, I'm too frank to be sweet. [not an attempt to fish compliments, but If you do have any, yes please. =)]

Frankness is honesty. I used to over-think before I talk. I used to not think before I talk. Its not easy being honest. People wounded with honest words. Ain't saying harsh words here, just a plain honest word can cause apocalypse in a relationship. "Hey honey, that attire doesn't look good on you." Boom. Gaduh berpatah arang sebab boyfie cakap I fugly sob sob. But boyfie wanted you to change attire because he didn't want you to wear those tiny clothes, dosa. He was looking after your modesty even before kahwin. Tak ke budiman sangat tu. Macam tu lah. [just a silly, unimportant example of daily life situation]

When honest person tells something frankly, they could come off as relentless, ruthless, mean, a monster, an ogre, a hulk. Their words smash people's heart. Kenapa? Sebab they tell the truth. I might have smashed hearts in the past, maybe I am sorry. Maybe I am not. Maybe I'm the monster.

What I've wrote here is not very much parallel with the title of this page [Behind the title], right? Hahaha. Kesah pulak aku.